I love to read my friend G's blog, it is always interesting, often inspiring, and at times funny==nothing funnier than real life my dad always says, so true.
Crazy week for me well 10 days so far since the hubs has been training. I have been tempted and failed many times, still looking for a win. My first ministry is to God, then my family. Finally caught up with my Bible plan and enjoying the time in the morning for that, but lacking in the prayer department still. My kiddos challenge me daily in the patience ring (which I have never claimed to have an ounce of) and that is my biggest failure. I get angry, irritated, snap, yell....instead of using the opportunity to find a gift or praise God for my kids, I focus on me and my own struggles to do a simple task without interuption or chaos. so many opportunities to show grace and love and patience (don't like that p word) and each time I fail. The good news is that I can fail a thousand times and God's mercy will remain and only He can change my reaction and fix me so long as I seek and ask Him to do so...
I have had 2 self destructive nights since my hubs has been gone, one night I ate a crunch bar (not a mini one either), and shared 2 bags of popcorn and 2 sodas with T--its been a long time since i have had soda and apparently 1 just didn't do it). Then last night after a very stressful day with my kids I got them to bed and sat down with a glass of wine and decided that it just sounded too good to resist and ate a bunch of cheese and crackers with it and some summer sausage--
wow what a downer I am, whats wrong with me? why am i focusing on the negative so much? oh there is the answer: I am focusing on myself too much....onto the new
Currently K is napping, I had a quick cat nap, and T is in his room quietly playing (while he is suppossed to be napping-I dont mind though as long as he is giving me a little quiet time). I just finished my coffee and read my friends blog-made me really want a great dane by the way, it will be awesomewhen we can get one ourselves! Peace in my house, comfort in my soul, warm coffee in my belly and a sweet text from my hubby while he is out in the crazy heat doing his crazy job missing his family and worrying about my sanity, I am so blessed to have him.
138. text messages
139. girls nights-very excitecd for my little date with M tonight while friends watch my kiddos
Little gifts are everywhere. My son just got up and said "good morning sunshine" and gave me a big hug and said he loved me, what else is there, but love and happiness! and health, wow I am so blessed to claim all of these. I may not always be happy, but there is no reason not to be, as happiness in my opinion is a state of mind I have to choose to be happy and right now right here I am choosing happiness!
140. double newspapers for only .89 cents more
141. friends who see you struggle and reach out
142. play dates
143. parents who are so kind and generous
144. vacation
145. aniticipating daddy coming home
146. 4 year old singing "shine your light in let the whole world see, singing for the glory of the risen king" I love when he sings, it could be one of my most favorite sounds.
147. both my kids dancing to christian music and smiles on their face as their mommy gets down too :)
148. Romans in the Bible, I am enjoying it greatly!
149. Pastor stories that get you to laugh and other ones that pierce your heart
150. song we sang in church (some lyrics to follow) not sure of the name, but so fitting right now.
"So here's my broken heart Lord do what you please, I'm laying down my life, my hopes, my dreams. Cause you laid down your life in love for me so I surrender all to you my king"
151. shouting out a song with other believers as a cry from your heart, hands high, heart abandoned, open and seeking our glorious Lord Jesus!
Time to get ready for my girl date and say a little prayer of thanks for God changing my perspective through writing this blog!
Monday, June 27, 2011
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
ponderings
122. camping with awesome people
123. awesome people who help me out with all that goes with camping and kids while hubby is away training
124. swimming in an awesome swim hole, again with awesome people, you all know who you are
125. coming home to A/C
126. watching son and daughter play in little river, T trying to skip rocks and pretend swim while K chews on rocks and crawls around fearlessly
127. brief phone calls from hubby while he is training
128. hubby missing me
129. sweet wine
130. advice from amazng moms
Had an amazing time camping with 2 other families-wish the hubs could've come, but duty calls as they say...Friday night was not great, K was up a lot because she was so hot, but saturday was awesome swimming and hiking a bit, hanging out with all the kids!
131. Have to agree with G, teenagers are pretty cool!!!
132. good talks with good boys
133. my ergo baby carrier--allowing me to tote my girl all over
134. diving into cool water on a hot day
135. knowing other families who enjoy rugged camping!
Back up a bit, forgot to mention before camping, before the hubs left, dog got sprayed with skunk, had to wash him in tomato soup as I had no tomato juice (not a fan of bloody mary's) and it only partially worked-entertaining to watch dog covered in red soup lick the bottom of the shower as I scooped concentrated soup from the can. P.S. I hate the smell of skunk spray--its like the combo of dead skunk mixed with burnt rubber...it took us a while to realize the smell was coming from our dog and not some electric thing in our house--poor hubby went crazy a little trying to diagnose....
Trying to use the time while hubs is gone to do things like: read, clean, complete unfinished artsy projects, eat cheaper, etc.....now time to focus on the kiddos a bit more...tomorrow its school time and whatever else Tanner wants to do, along witha a trip to the library I belive to pick out new books and hopefully find the first mouse and the motocycle book--so we can start at the beginning and have it all make sense as to why ralph wanted to runaway.....I really need to upload pictures on my computer so i can put new ones on here too.....
136. God knows me and only gives me what I can handle--sometimes it has felt as though He must have forgot what my limit was, but no matter what He gets me thru!
137. Friends who love me as I am and don't want to change me in all my craziness and paradoxical-ness...accepting me for who I am.
A recent tiff with an old friend reiterated this little fact "love me, or leave me, but don't try to change me" I am a peculiar type of chic and dont make a whole lot of sense. I am up for digging in and getting dirty, but I hate creepy crawley critterey slithery things. I can be so girly and then so not. I don't like to cry and try to fight it as much as possibly I make awkward jokes when emotions are high and try to fix things that can't be fixed. Oh there is so much more, but its late and this bag of crazy is going to bed. Goodnight and God bless!
123. awesome people who help me out with all that goes with camping and kids while hubby is away training
124. swimming in an awesome swim hole, again with awesome people, you all know who you are
125. coming home to A/C
126. watching son and daughter play in little river, T trying to skip rocks and pretend swim while K chews on rocks and crawls around fearlessly
127. brief phone calls from hubby while he is training
128. hubby missing me
129. sweet wine
130. advice from amazng moms
Had an amazing time camping with 2 other families-wish the hubs could've come, but duty calls as they say...Friday night was not great, K was up a lot because she was so hot, but saturday was awesome swimming and hiking a bit, hanging out with all the kids!
131. Have to agree with G, teenagers are pretty cool!!!
132. good talks with good boys
133. my ergo baby carrier--allowing me to tote my girl all over
134. diving into cool water on a hot day
135. knowing other families who enjoy rugged camping!
Back up a bit, forgot to mention before camping, before the hubs left, dog got sprayed with skunk, had to wash him in tomato soup as I had no tomato juice (not a fan of bloody mary's) and it only partially worked-entertaining to watch dog covered in red soup lick the bottom of the shower as I scooped concentrated soup from the can. P.S. I hate the smell of skunk spray--its like the combo of dead skunk mixed with burnt rubber...it took us a while to realize the smell was coming from our dog and not some electric thing in our house--poor hubby went crazy a little trying to diagnose....
Trying to use the time while hubs is gone to do things like: read, clean, complete unfinished artsy projects, eat cheaper, etc.....now time to focus on the kiddos a bit more...tomorrow its school time and whatever else Tanner wants to do, along witha a trip to the library I belive to pick out new books and hopefully find the first mouse and the motocycle book--so we can start at the beginning and have it all make sense as to why ralph wanted to runaway.....I really need to upload pictures on my computer so i can put new ones on here too.....
136. God knows me and only gives me what I can handle--sometimes it has felt as though He must have forgot what my limit was, but no matter what He gets me thru!
137. Friends who love me as I am and don't want to change me in all my craziness and paradoxical-ness...accepting me for who I am.
A recent tiff with an old friend reiterated this little fact "love me, or leave me, but don't try to change me" I am a peculiar type of chic and dont make a whole lot of sense. I am up for digging in and getting dirty, but I hate creepy crawley critterey slithery things. I can be so girly and then so not. I don't like to cry and try to fight it as much as possibly I make awkward jokes when emotions are high and try to fix things that can't be fixed. Oh there is so much more, but its late and this bag of crazy is going to bed. Goodnight and God bless!
Monday, June 13, 2011
Early in the morning, when I rise
Give me Jesus, give me Jesus, you can have, all this world just give me Jesus!
It has been far too long for a blog post and I figured what better time than the present while I am up early before my kiddos.
This Saturday I did a bike ride for charity with my amazing hubby, and 2 of our friends. We did 35 miles, it was the longest I have ever gone and the first 17 miles may have kicked my butt and made me think I hated it, but the last half was amazing! It was so awesome to be out getting an awesome workout, supporting a charity, talking with M, and taking in God's beauty all around us!
109. Bike rides
110. Riding down a red brick road at the end with M and whooping and hollaring together
111. Being immersed in God's beauty
112. The amazing and distinct smell of horses, not to mention their beauty
113. Husband being proud of me, waiting at the finish line for me and greeting me with smile and big hug and kiss.
114. Amazing friends like G praying for us during our ride, very sweet thank you so much!
Last night we went to our missional community group for a BBQ, the men fixed the host's fence and the women made goody bags to hand out to those in need. It was awesome! Great salad
114. G's greek salad, yummy I could eat it all day long!
It was nice to chat and just hang around each other. I enjoyed talking with the teenagers--we all have great kids if I might add---watching my 4 year old son learn to swing high by himself thanks to sweet little Biz helping teach him!
115. Kind boys who stop to teach the young ones, who are patient and let them catch the football and throw it, that show grace to a boy with enough energy for 2 little boys
116. Being in community and continuing to grow together.
117. G encuraging home schooling and giving me ideas on how to get started with my son!
118. Singing with M
119. Son dancing with abandon and beinga rocket star as he calls it :)
120. Boys dressed as cowboys and taking cowboy names like Dusty :)
121. streams and creeks
It has been far too long for a blog post and I figured what better time than the present while I am up early before my kiddos.
This Saturday I did a bike ride for charity with my amazing hubby, and 2 of our friends. We did 35 miles, it was the longest I have ever gone and the first 17 miles may have kicked my butt and made me think I hated it, but the last half was amazing! It was so awesome to be out getting an awesome workout, supporting a charity, talking with M, and taking in God's beauty all around us!
109. Bike rides
110. Riding down a red brick road at the end with M and whooping and hollaring together
111. Being immersed in God's beauty
112. The amazing and distinct smell of horses, not to mention their beauty
113. Husband being proud of me, waiting at the finish line for me and greeting me with smile and big hug and kiss.
114. Amazing friends like G praying for us during our ride, very sweet thank you so much!
Last night we went to our missional community group for a BBQ, the men fixed the host's fence and the women made goody bags to hand out to those in need. It was awesome! Great salad
114. G's greek salad, yummy I could eat it all day long!
It was nice to chat and just hang around each other. I enjoyed talking with the teenagers--we all have great kids if I might add---watching my 4 year old son learn to swing high by himself thanks to sweet little Biz helping teach him!
115. Kind boys who stop to teach the young ones, who are patient and let them catch the football and throw it, that show grace to a boy with enough energy for 2 little boys
116. Being in community and continuing to grow together.
117. G encuraging home schooling and giving me ideas on how to get started with my son!
118. Singing with M
119. Son dancing with abandon and beinga rocket star as he calls it :)
120. Boys dressed as cowboys and taking cowboy names like Dusty :)
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